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audio files can be complemented by listening to them with the eyes closed !

let’s see an mri of your brain then !

ed. of dillon’s claims to have his whole body intact

you really really fucked yourself, stuck in a paperbag you can’t see your way out of !

ed. dillon complains i view him as subhuman

i didn’t deliberately damage my brain did i ?

so, you’ve become gollum , better head for the mount of doom shouldn’t you ?

just your usual drug trip ?

why would i want to change your mind ?

toxic people like yourself deserve to stew in their own stupidity !

its taking another into that cesspool i object to !

how accurate is this about DMT, looks boring wacko to me !

let’s not talk about permanent brain damage !

aliester crowley

a poem of roykan’s posted by planetbyter

this world

a fading

mountain echo

void and

unreal

my reply

sorta fake if you ask me !

planetbyter replies

i didn’t ask you

my reply

lol, you just did !

this world

where

the don’t asks

ask !

you will speak to me again because fakes are always drawn to harass truth

dillon you’re a pot damaged idiot passing the time pretending you have real understanding !

drug culture is drug culture, you reek of its bullshit, don’t play the innocent with me !

you’re a pot damaged idiot passing the time pretending you have real understanding !

toni packer who knew philip kapleau well said the enlightenment stories in the three pillars of zen were made up !

i heard her say this

the book made him a lot of money, its pop culture crap really !

some guy in therapy for anxiety and depression asks for advice on the zen retreat he has been advised by his therapist to go to

my reply

zen itself is nothing but a bunch of retarded depressives so you will be at home !

given that retreats can make people suicidal or accentuate mental illness, if you were honest about your condition to them they won’t allow you to attend !

just swallow your pills and get diseases from the side effects is the true way now !

zen never allows mentally ill people to attend retreats !

they just get crazier !

° ° ° ° ° ° ° ° °

all the recent research shows that exercise is a huge benefit and likely a reason for retreats being potentially dangerous to depressives because of the enforced inactivity !

the evolutionary reason for exercise so instrumentally improving depression is that the brain grows because it was of benefit during the actual hunting and gathering

too much exercise is also a problem as is joint injury

cold showers, dipping in ice water, infrared exposure, saunas and rolling in the snow and sun skin exposure all generate a heat shock response which lengthens telomeres and rationally excites the immune system

lack of sleep literally physically damages the brain

r|zen, the final rest home for the drug brain damaged

fakes can only copy and get it wrong

you

are

How can anyone pass through the Gateless Gate if they can’t get past the Whatever Gate ?

what gate to where ?

zen is nothing but idiots worshipping nonsense

to a mountain hermit

it was so cold this morning and maybe the white frost jogged my memory, i thought of you gathering firewood by the stream, perhaps you are warmer than i but its a hard cold up there and i hope you are managing !

temicco dribbles

Have you read Tilopa’s six words of advice ?

Don’t recall.

Don’t imagine.

Don’t think.

Don’t examine.

Don’t control.

Rest.

my reply

“ Don’t recall ” you recalled

“ Don’t imagine ” well he got that right, you have no imagination, btw what happened to it, drugs ?

“ Don’t think ” like why did you post then ?

“ Don’t examine ” yeah i would say that’s you

“ Don’t control ” you are a complete control freak

“ rest ” yeah i’d give your crazy bullshit a rest if i was you !

“ . . pretends he is also a poet who is up on all the psychiatric research ”

wot ?

not a poet ?

schizophrenic, narcissistic, BPD, hallucinogenic, psychosis, PTSD, autistic, aspergers, semantic-pragmatic disorder . . .

give up !

a poem by ikkyu

the spring mountains covered with layers of most variegated colors

and the spring streams fancifully laden with the reflecting images

standing by himself between heaven and earth

facing infinitude of beings

my reworking

the hills in spring

covered in blossom

catching sight of myself in a stream

i feel suspended

real life catch-22

“ I want to get up in the morning, do a good hard day’s work, eat a good meal at a good family table, say hello to neighbors, shoot pheasants, walk out through a pretty field of spuds, drive to town through the snow . . ”

killed over vienna, december 1944

dunning-kruger before the term came into being !

i’d like to see some philological exegesis when a medieval chinese meaning is discussed technically !

an ikkyu poem

woodcutters and fishermen just know how to use things

what would they do with fancy chairs and meditation platforms ?

in straw sandals and with bamboo staff, i roam three thousand worlds, dwelling by the water

feasting on the wind, year after year

my reworking

rustic folk have functional furniture !

what use do they have for the effete ?

just getting by

i travel by walking

bill porter translates the phrase “ gateless gate ” as meaning a person has seen through the world, so there is no gate any more !

i like this better than the name - antonym pair

ed. i posted the above as an OP on r|zen and it attracted suprisingly virulent responses indicating various idiots were disconcerted by the notion the translations are not the bedrock of meaning they suppose them to be !

also i think they found bill porter’s wide poetic and literary interests upsetting !

what i like about this translation is it obviates the notion of “ gate ” , like shift the perspective and its a false problem that disappears !

what’s enlightenment ?

its understanding how the world really is

“ what’s enlightenment ? ”

its understanding how the world really is

popular music is a feel-good anesthetic !

brittany is stuck at a “ pop culture ” intellectual level !

popular music is a feel-good anesthetic !

listening to music is consuming some-one else’s thought, its not your own

no wonder today’s generations are awash in stupidity !

jason, you are projecting, as usual . . .

you don’t understand the gap between an idea and competence

you are projecting, as usual . . .

you don’t understand the gap between an idea and competence

there’s only one per generation at the most who understands what zen is about, maybe a handful since huineng

the fermi paradox is not a paradox

there’s actually a very low probability for communicating civilizations, but a high probability for life

the claimed observed dyson spheres have all been disproved, or rather proved to be natural phenomena !

the universe is “ vast ” but the problem is that even that is not enough to render the chain of events for a long lived communicating civilisation possible !

the fermi paradox is not a paradox

there’s actually a very low probability for communicating civilizations, but a high probability for life

lucian of samosata recounts the life of peregrinus

ewk, you don’t seem to grasp that the word ‘ zen ’ is in the public domain, in this case soldiers on psychedelics perceive the oneness of things and so are “ zen ” and don’t fight . .

its just one use amongst many, you seem under the illusion you can defeat public domain use and keep the word to your conscription !

WW2 was fought on amphetamines, the germans in the siege of stalingrad were so drugged they died from too little fat on their bodies

the speedy invasion through the ardennes was only possible with amphetamine use

similarly the defenders of the battle of britain

interestingly the island of lesbos really was famous for lesbians from sappho to lucian !

i was reading some bodhidharma history and its very interesting how these hermits lived close to patronage !

lol like a kilometer from the emperor’s palace !

jason writes that brittany seems to have herpes outbreaks pretty often

ed. the supplements she uses are all immune stimulants !

yeah, bad luck for her and it can fuck the brain to !

she’s a real mixture of races and this can give a very uneven immune system which in her case doesn’t tamp herpes simplex very well !

hybrid breeding can translate to a greater cancer risk as well !

the plus side is there is greater vigour and possibly intelligence !

the huge amount of energy the body uses when its cold compared to warm is taken from the energy it puts to fighting viruses etc !

not to mention the advantages of heat for iron suppression and enhanced circulation

musicians seem to be much more susceptible to addiction, behavior and judgment problems than more “ normal people ”

it turns out their brains are developmentally different and even amongst their own specialties !

yamamoto tsunetomo never fought in battle in his life !

just all poncy fake, this crap about samurais, most were were murderous bandits as far as i can see !

japan paid dearly for this bullshit cult in WW2 fighting a real enemy and not books !

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study japanese history, the real samurai culture is medieval and long gone by the time of tsunetomo

rape, pillage, torture and plunder is the historical reality !

well the plus side of your sort of samurai which is waving a sword around in a dojo is that gritty stuff is avoided !

I know my brother also does some form of meditation but when I try I just make like a story in my head and its not like a blank thought, its elaborate and I think I’m doing something wrong

the story is the running of your brain in “ default mode ” and when you look at the stories you realise they are your basic patterns of motivation !

for instance with me, i am “ fixing ” situations so they are my idea of better which i am told is a pretty basic male pattern !

so it will make you more aware of yourself

that’s one side, the other side is the “ mystical contemplative aspect ” and for that you have to do quality reading

solitary walks in beautiful surroundings is the best and most rewarding “ contemplation ”

i see people recommending r|meditation, but in my experience they are all schizophrenics or ex alkies or addicts on that subreddit

the addicts on r|zen don’t think they have a problem !

i am pretty ADHD myself, i don’t medicate, what helps is doing a lot of writing and as i say read quality so the brain turns over useful stuff, not populist crap !

the real point of zen which is what i have written above is to solve the mystery of life, but when you do that you will find the world basically lies about what it is and what is involved !

this is what my writing is about, life is like some manic barely caged tiger always about to eat you, except we usually suffer the indiginity of being slowly nibbled to death by aging

several people couldn’t understand why i asked this question on the r|zen AMA

“ How do you feel drug use impacts zen ? ”

its because a lot of drug use is taken to be “ zen ” particularly psychedelics

the question is actually neutral but in my view drugs have two effects that are antithetical to zen

1. they create a narcissistic solipsism

2. they are completely deficient in and trash the cognitive basis of visionary experiences

meditation equals solitary contemplation, there’s nothing really more to say about it except its a voyage of discovery !

missionizing fixed viewpoints is its antithesis, why people do this, i do not know !

i asked someone if i was the only one who questioned general knowledge and wisdom. that so many value them. i guess you too ?

people are very ignorant i find and become anxious if the blinders are removed

what made you first question knowledge and wisdom ?

everything has always been a question, the problem is putting enough time in to examine things sufficiently to move beyond the herd’s opinion

i had the buffet dinner at the RSA, not many people there and a blind girl with her boyfriend came in and sat at the table next to me

for some reason i was really emotionally tuned to her, her difficulty with life and just doing anything

i started crying

later i drove along the coast and climbed up a steep hill and just looked out at the sea for while until it got too dark to stay and climb down safely !

my writing is a puzzle, it appears simpler than it is and has to be unwrapped and explored

i was talking to the lady in the health shop and i was looking for taurine which helps with migraine, i asked her if there was anything in the air as i had a tickle in the back of my throat since coming to town and she dead seriously told me it was chem trails so i mentioned my neighbour who is staying up in tweed heads at the moment so close to the airport flight path she can smell the kerosone !

do you think what you eat has an effect on your brain and the way you behave ?

do you think what you eat has an effect on your brain health and the way you behave ?

a neighbour of some years back who was a moderate to heavy drinker now has age-related macular degeneration

he also had quite high radon exposure as a cave tour guide

we all get a disease as we get older

when you look at the past, it might just as well be the future

anybody can criticise anything

i think

that if they are going to

criticise

something as difficult

poem

they should do

a poem

to show

they

have

the

craft !

“ I also think that if you’re honest with yourself ”

you’re a stupid arsehole who thinks quoting idiot text is some sort of substitute for working things out for yourself !

work on it !

the real bodhidharma ?

“ near nanjing he took up residence at lower samadhi forest temple on mt. zhong, a mountain at the northeast outskirts of the city, because he delighted in the forests and lakes there ”

an aharon appelfeld quote

“ life is permanent war ”

“ life is perpetual war ”

“ life is perpetual warfare ”

or “ life is permanent warfare ”

when the villagers had gone, bodhidharma collected up the food offerings, had a good nosh then hung out the sign “ doing some serious meditation, go away ” got out his pornography and settled back for some “ viewing ”

later he looked at the mail, oh an invitation to a feast at heyin, good-oh he thought and started to think about what to take with him on the trip ?

his best suit ?

what hat would be a hit with the chicks ?

this was a serious business !

i think the problem with alcoholism these days is the ready supply of cheap quality booze, charles bukowski when young sort of kept himself on the wagon by being very poor and not able to afford much

compared to almost any other drug its almost free and the quantities its possible to imbibe are huge !

recent research shows that almost any quantity of alcohol is carcinogenic !

reduced blood flow to the hippocampus

brittany’s problem is the same as yours (ed. jason) and millions of others, using pot when the underlying sleep and other health problems need to be addressed

its “ waiting at the end of time ” in a maladaptive way . .

she has some unsolvable problems as you do, unsolvable problems squared are a disaster from my personal experience !

drsoinso

a dead heron bloated

a sewer

she

calls

education

i’m not posting here , but having some experience in this area i’m making a comment !

its a genuine experience and one of the proofs is most people will diss it !

its not good news, if you strip out the zen bullshit you are heaping on it and read it and and have a think about about it over a while you will get a different perspective !

what people miss about zen is its really about “ life failure ” and often early death or disability from health problems

your poem is ok, but you really need to read what you wrote !

mercenaries are dangerous men, they kill for pay

if you ever met one, beware !

women understand men better than they understand themselves

of course, not understanding themselves puts them at a disadvantage !

brittany replies to jason

how do i remind you of marzia ? from what i’ve seen from pewdiepie’s videos she has like no personality

my reply

i think they are both pretty rational, less hormonally driven than most women

you can’t understand zen or mysticism without putting a lot of solitary contemplative time in, people seem to think they have entry through specific semantics !

brittany has been learning japanese since she was fourteen

learning an unnecessary extra or second language fucks people up !

toanythingtaboo asks

I’ve wondered if Zen is really non-dual , like with Wumen Huaikai saying internal and external spontaneously united, or Hunagbo and the One Mind, or if its not really alluding to either duality or non-duality

r e p l y

this sort of zen is just a projection onto a meaningless rubbish tip of words

when you post on r|zen you are posting amongst the seagulls !

jason writes

brittany said it herself “ yes women date men for their money ”

r e p l y

lol, brittany is stream dating a lot of very poor young men !

meghan markle NOT !

jason writes that he doesn’t blame brittany for wanting someone with money

i’m not sure if it was “ barfly ” where charles bukowski’s girlfriend goes with a guy with money and charles doesn’t become angry with her, there’s also the story of charles going onto a yacht with his girlfriend and two other women while they entertain the yacht owner

r e p l y

children murder their mothers and women murder their men

. . . he’s twenty seven trying to be an actor in nyc

the internet has turned acting into a volunteer profession, the rash of denunciations of sexual coercion by film directors at the moment (2017/18) is really about there not being enough money or work to keep the lid on !

acting has gone the way of book writing and publishing and photography, all entirely “ volunteer ” activities now !

alexander lobanov and ioseb jughashvili were both insane

the link intends the middle picture, pink roses and stalin holding a female or androgynous sailor

a thoughtful video

the theoretical and historical origins of ISIS ?

“ ibn taymiyyah, a noted theologian of his times, developed his blatantly racist concept of takfir : that is to say inferior muslims against whom jihad was permissible, precisely in response to mongol muslims ”

its hard to understand the extreme of stupidity where people sit around singing the praises of voynich, but that’s what religion is !

its hard to understand the extreme of stupidity where people sit around singing the praises of voynich, but that’s what religion is

its hard to understand the extreme of stupidity where people sit around singing the praises of voynich, but that’s what zen is !

its hard to understand the extreme of stupidity where people sit around singing the praises of voynich, but that’s what zen is

women

confusion about the term “ entropy ” comes from the inversion of value, as we value order over disorder then higher states of entropy might be assumed to be more ordered, but in fact its the other way around !

you have the right to exist and be obstructive on the highway of heaven

you have a right to exist and be obstructive on the highway of heaven

you have the right to exist and be obstructive in the highway of heaven

you have a right to exist and be obstructive in the highway of heaven

new york is famous for “ passive aggressive ” , but its not something that works well imo

its an interesting ethical question, the complete life and death control we have over our pets !

when emily dickinson died she can have had no expectation of her poetry surviving let alone her becoming the cult figure she is today !

when emily dickinson died she can have had no expectation of her poetry surviving her death let alone her becoming the cult figure she is today !

i can’t say i ever found benny hill that funny, but his life was really autistic !

overfocused and hugely successful as a performer and writer the other areas suffered !

zen is one of several mystical traditions, if you are going to get overfocused on zen, you have a problem !

zen is one of several mystical traditions, if you are going to get overfocused on zen then you have a problem !

“ i’m not a beta orbiter am i ? i don’t believe so ”

what’s wrong with being a beta orbiter ?

safer for sure !

put name here and you is “ too much autism under one roof ”

my advice is to take the balmy beach and ‘ pass ’ on the hurricane !

put name here and you is “ too much autism under one roof ”

my advice is to take the balmy beach and pass on the hurricane !

jason writes

brittany called me an “ absolute moron ” after the first court case

r e p l y

she was triggered by your saying “ charles bukowski ” which was interesting, she only knows him by reputation as in fact he’s not misogynist at all, quite the opposite

i think, while very intelligent, she’s like oprah , “ a woman of the people ” which carries an implied moronacy, she gets hints of a more interesting intellectual world but won’t go there !

she also seemed to react to your poem

i saw this with toni packer, she is being dragged down by her audience, the only way out is to keep a reading interest up with the greats, however she doesn’t want to do this, but i suspect is feeling there is some sort of problem !

lol, her and elohim are peas in a pod, except elohim has talent and some money !

maybe she could give interviews like your one with lisa cairns, it pays well and there are millions of young men out there who need to develop more sophisticated social skills (putting it mildly!) and be able to learn to converse with and understand the female mind !

“ Hey ! I find you interesting. This is random, but I remember reading your posts and coming across what you said about various Zen masters and also Wittgenstein. What’s your take ? ”

lol, random ?

wittgenstein was famous too young and it ruined his philosophy !

not to mention his family problems with adolf hitler !

i really am getting into the lack of synchronicity between translations and the originals, but with a few exceptions like joshu, most of so called zen masters of old were not fully enlightened and certainly today most are empty vacuoles spouting bullshit they have learnt !

“ I was gonna say, I am very curious about the whole lineage.

Some may not actually be Zen masters ”

my reply

the basic problem with lineage is genuine zen masters/patriarchs only come along once every couple of generations or so, so usually there is no physical continuity

huineng had no enlightened successors, so there’s just me as the 7th patriarch !

“ So which of those were zen masters, and which were not ?

i think in terms of r|zen, their scriptural bases appear to be daihui and huangpo, neither of whom were fully enlightened !

infinity occurs utterly without regard to cause and effect, you can’t see it or touch it, but its there

translations are largely constructions in the mind of the translator that bear little resemblance to the original !

translations are largely constructions in the mind of the translator that bear little resemblance to the original

picking raspberries

the cat harassing me

i show it the “ no cats ” sign

it can’t read

around the corner a shadow moves

low sun

yes its the cat !

around the corner a shadow moves

its the cat !

the core of fermat’s last theorem is that if you have a fraction, you can multiply it by another fraction to get an integer which is a requirement of ellipses having their origin in motion in discrete revolutions around the circumference of a circle !

i was thinking i am “ incel ” but in fact i am “ volcel ”

women burn men so fiercely they can only look at the ashes

bailiff : who is the case being brought against

me : life

bailiff : what is the case the plaintiff is bringing

me : that life isn’t fair

judge (quickly) : i have no juristriction, case dismissed and bangs the gavel down !

jason seems reluctant to put his blog up for brittany’s “ judgment ”

what i should consider though is her audience ?

they might get bored looking at my blog

r e p l y

i don’t find it boring

you may find they react against it

they are not bored, its just what you say upsets them

i’m looking at a case, i don’t think your blog is what they are looking for, can’t make any suggestions except the one on at the moment is stupid (ed. about her defaming basement dwelling mgtows and incels)

how about ‘ public deception with intent, brittany is really a man and the baliff is a woman ’

you need a new topic, the current case already covers gender blurring

well jason and brittany did the case (case of fraud for brittany venti claiming to be queen) he brought against her, she gave him the death penalty when he mentioned charles bukowski : o) and told him “ you have not been considerate of my time ”

my comment

she did make some valid points about you that you have not picked up in the time i have known you

you were imposing your own content and the requirement there was for quicker replies and thinking

well worthwhile, you have to start somewhere, maybe the poem rattled her a bit, is her mother dead ?

ed. both her parents are dead

jason’s poem

laying on my hammock

mother sick downstairs

radiator hissing

why worry about my original face

when i have this one right here ?

my comments

she’d been having a lot of cases against her, you just made another case when you needed a fresh topic

its entertainment so it wants to be entertaining, i think you were “ too heavy ”

she’s sharp witted and its like a fencing match !

the moment you mentioned charles bukowski she got rid of you, i think because that was out of her league

basically she’s a shallow thinker, so’s oprah

jason says

its difficult to fence with her when her mods are in the room

my reply

well its like the film “ the wall ” there’s a barrier between her and you and she wants it that way

jason replies

yeah i can’t think of anything entertaining

my reply

well its fencing, you parry her thrusts and deliver a few of your own, that’s all

in fact i think the poem rattled her, you did get a thrust home

she lives on pizza and chinese takeaways, what can you say ?

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you are being too content oriented, its “ play ” just go with what comes up, it should be fun for both of you, like a good game of tennis

now i think about it a guy in a wheelchair who had diffculty speaking clearly went on to complain about his glasses being broken and he couldn’t afford to buy new ones, brittany and her boyfriend brushed it off (judge and baliff)

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jason went on again for a new case and thought that it went ok but he was not an on-demand entertaining person

my comment

you are too bogged down in right and wrong and literalism

she’s actually very good for you

r|zen

endless the gaslighting narcissists

the embodiment of “ bad faith ” !

r|zen

endless the gaslighting narcissists

a good explanation of what is behind fermat’s last theorem

everything is secondary to me, myself !

everything is secondary to me, myself

andrew wiles, solver of fermat’s last theorem

able prize interview

the moment of insight

what is being a buddha ?

yet another bad soap opera ?

what is being a buddha ? yet another bad soap opera ?

sunlight shrinks subcutaneous fat cells !

some things remain really constant, but if you work at it, other things will really move, this is the nature of reality !

some things remain very constant, but if you work at it, other things will really move, this is the nature of reality !

brittany, a succubus with blue contact lenses !

contemporary politics only appears significant because people have no notion of history

brittany writes

i just give up on the average woman

they get too emotional and confuse it with logic too

when it comes to things like leadership you need some empathy sure but you need logic

we’re built different chemically

its just how it is

maryam mirzakhani, super competent on topology , she knows her subject intimately and can convey it well, yet she is dead, it just doesn’t make sense

something and now gone, what for and was life worth living ?

why ?

if you give advice, look at the advice you give because most likely you need to take it yourself !

what i don’t understand is the theoretical or abstract richness of these things , how did they come into existance ?

i think richard carrier has it wrong about people not living past forty in medieval and earlier times, for one thing our biological development which has aspects that are very late maturing, up to the early thirties even, wouldn’t make sense !

“ for people living traditional lives, without modern medicine or markets, the most common age of death is about seventy ”

i think once you get past the high mortality years the picture changes !

“ don’t judge me ” is so grooming for alcohol and drug problems !

“ what is god ? ”

three words

in the clouds by robyn rich

jason writes

pot causing brain damage doesn’t sit too well with brittany !

my reply

in fact between her pot use and health/diet problems she is always being cut back and her streaming is failing because she can’t get to the next level !

jason replies

she should wish to hear that advice

my reply

you might be surprised that she is already aware of the situation

she could be like you, low brain derived neurotrophic factor (a measure of resilience to toxic stress in the brain) and ice poseidon is high BDNF though he is being cut back as well !

the chaos and stupidity of whole streaming scene has its roots in marijuana use

jason replies

that theory about roots in marijuana makes sense to me

the bed has to get real hot to kill bed bugs, i’d just get one or several cheap electric blankets with no automatic control and with a preheat switch option and don’t tie to the bed but move or parallel them through the different layers to get between each layer up to 50°C

personally i don’t sleep with the electric blanket on the bed, but put it between the midway blanket level to dry and heat the bed then remove to to go to sleep

you have to cut the ties off and don’t set the bed on fire !

contact lenses make the biofilm in the eye much more like the skin and i think in addition to increased eye problems, this translates through to systemic microbiome problems as well !

so, i’m not really a fan of this , except the frontipiece, the book mixed two very different iconographies, dali’s and dodgson’s and basically it doesn’t work !

mia farrow , salvador dali , frank sinatra, other sinatras, ronan farrow, woody allen, harvey weinstein, an unholy autistic spectrum collection if there ever was one !

i am quite interested in the holocaust because it was such a catastrophic blast through lives and the insanity and damage to their own self interest of the perpetrators

holocaust survivor and author aharon appelfeld

interview obituary

We were with my grandmother at the farm. The Romanians and Germans came and they shot my mother and my grandmother. It was in the summer of 1941. I was nine and a half years old. She was thirty-one. I am now eighty-two. My mother will always remain young and I am going to be very old. She was a beautiful woman

in another account he tells of leaving their home in czernowitz in the northern borderlands of romania to spend the summer holidays at his grandparents in the nearby carpathian mountains

sick in bed with the mumps, on hearing shots he jumped out the window and hid in the cornfield behind the house and had to listen to his mother screaming from the germans torturing her and both his mother and grandmother were murdered !

ed. chapter nineteen

general anesthetics are problematic for the very young and old

yeah public personalities are “ fair game ”

women become very strange and vindictive at any hint they are damaged

zen masters don’t master zen

epileptic brain irritiablity cycling over a day and a multidien period of twenty to thirty days may also hold for migraine !

i know that i inevitably get migraine at separated intervals of several weeks and just about always they start in the afternoon !

two interesting social and technological trends

the first being the very high quality of the machine translation

and secondly, that sitting reduces the bodies perception of its own weight, which must be a contributing factor in why sitting is so unhealthy !

what i find with people on autistic spectrum from brittany to ewk to yourself (ed. jason) is they don’t do better than their health !

if you don’t address the diet etc then the problems will always undercut you

brittany must be a disaster area

eileen, what i figured was that the constant in your relationships was you !

the one that wasn’t a disaster for you, you couldn’t leave soon enough !

the monk asked

what happens when we don’t perceive ourselves ?

the 7th patriarch replied

who is not perceived ?

the monk was dumbfounded !

only their own children ever settles women

jason writes

james thinks its a red flag that she was saying “ i’m not happy with your life choices ” to her boyfriend, that its a red flag and that she wants him to be how she wants

he was thinking that she might have just used me as a platform to express herself and that she will stay with him, then i told him how we had looked at each other on the train and he understood how powerful that can be

she was writing last night in her group how she doesn’t like short guys, or guys with brown eyes . . don’t know if she was taking the piss

my comment

she seems to get sick easily and in addition as tim said she is high maintenance

plus she has effectively asked you to keep your distance

i think you are too projecting without real life observation balance

she’s very damaged and a lot of work

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she likes moths, autistic women seem to like moths

i mentioned how she had said she doesn’t like to be alone, thus her two boyfriends having lived with her

james said that’s not a red flag, but a blinding light

yrsa daley-ward gives a good and off-putting insight into women

oddly, despite being racially very african, she comes across so english that she seems straight out of my new zealand culture

dave, you are man of superficiality

yes, i know, depth requires work and sacrifice

but haven’t you noticed, you do that anyway promoting the superficial !

dave, you are man of superficiality

yes, i know, depth requires work and sacrifice

dave, you are man of superficiality

one interesting and unintended side effect of the nuremberg race laws was the removal of jews from the wehrmacht resulted in a subtle lack of effective strategic thinking at all levels to the point where any infantryman was a better strategist than what actually happened !

mischlings

to be fair to adolf, operation barbarossa could have possibly succeeded if they had marched rapidly and directly on just moscow while soviet tank production was still low !

even in the very early stages, german troop losses were too high to be sustained !

the writing was on the wall within days of the start of the invasion !

my reworking of case/chapter seventy-seven of the book of serenity

a monk asked kyozan, what are you like with meaningless charades ?

kyozan smugly conceded he could hold his own !

the monk then circled him clockwise as asked what the meaning of that was ?

koyzan traced a cross on the ground !

the monk then circled him counterclockwise and asked what the meaning of that was !

koyzan traced each arm of the cross backwards so they all went to the center and then smoothed the cross out !

the monk drew a circle in the air and raised his hands palms up to give the appearance of a giant supporting the sun and the moon and asked “ what is the meaning of this ? ”

kyozan drew a circle around where the cross had been, and the monk mimicked the appearance of a fierce temple guardian

i think men are fairly easy going (if they didn’t get pinched too hard in a divorce settlement) about dealing with ex’s after a relationship break up, but the women may not be !

maladaptive daydreaming disorder

a form of dissociative adaptation in fact !

you have the weight of history on the one hand

and the weight of poetry on the other

you have the weight of history on the one hand

and the weight of poetry on the

other

r|zen plays host to another pretender

mind sense body

soul and god

r|zen plays host to another pretender

mind sense body

soul god

the glittering moonlight sparkling on the flowing stream

the glittering moonlight sparkling on a flowing stream

a measure of the intelligence of iosif was that he had nikolai varfolomeev arrested only after he had handed in his draft to the publisher of his famous ‘ the evolution of operational art ’ , foundational for russian strategy in world war II !

he was arrested within days of handing it in and later died in prison in 1941 !

hmm, a stalin parody

the laws of this world are quite different from morality, the most basic one is the cost of not giving something adequate attention

even hubris doesn’t suffer too much, only its consequence as per above !

the laws of this world are quite different from morality, the most basic one is the cost of not giving something adequate attention

recent research has been especially damning on the follow-on consequences of diabetes, here is yet another one , reducing the heart muscle’s metabolic adaptability and causing heart cells to overuse fat as a metabolic fuel which leads to numerous small, misshapen mitochondria that don’t produce energy as efficiently as normal mitochondria

jason writes

i was on the train with her and everyone going to the second place (ed. from ice poseidons’s infamous 2018 new years eve party at the sheraton — the next day ice’s girlfriend caroline broke up with him) and i was going between the groups talking to everyone, then i went off to the side by myself just keeping my balance on the train and i was looking at brittany sitting down, i think i was even sort of smiling and then she looked at me and it was one of those slow down moments until i looked away

my reply

“ and then she looked at me ”

she’s made some calculations about you, time will show what they are !

jason replies

brittany is one of or the smartest person i’ve met in real life

the dysfunctional kind of intelligence

amy mctighe with the kurds

a forty year old american ESL teacher currently in china asks about doing a retreat when he gets back to the usa !

my reply

most zen centers are run by idiot lunatics

i know from experience , have been to a lot !

r|zen is a psychward !

his reply

. . So, Zen = Crazy, got it !

my reply

no i said psychward !

rilke is not a psychward ! (ed. he has read rilke and mary oliver)

the whole problem with communal retreats is they usually come with some sort of “ imprinting ” which is really crazy and can never be undone

“ zen ” is like an obstruction of what poetry is really about

since you teach english in china, why not look at wang wei’s poetry ?

the most zen book you can read is this

it might seem peripheral but its not and the family involved are qing dynasty aristocrats and the last really of a long qing involvement with zen before it died completely in china !

just to go or a walk by yourself is a good retreat

i think therefore i am

i think therefore i am thinking

lotta use rené !

i think therefore i am

i think therefore i am thinking

lotta use rené !

if you are giving advice, you are too involved for the distance you are from the problem

if you are giving advice, you are too involved

why do i write what i do ?

bleeding

why do i write what i do ?

i am bleeding

infinity includes its exclusion

how ?

its exclusion is in denial about itself !

infinity includes its exclusion

how ?

its exclusion is in denial about itself

infinity must also be what its not and the only way it can be that is if what its not is in denial of itself !

the flower duet sung by soprano anna netrebko and mezzo-soprano elina garanca

lyrics

emily dickinson aged sixteen morphs to late twenties or early thirties ?

hmm, no wonder charles bukowski died of luekemia !

acetaldehyde (produced when the body processes alcohol) can break and damage DNA within blood stem cells, permanently altering the DNA sequences within these cells

when healthy stem cells become faulty, they can give rise to cancerous cells

you can tell bon soeng /jeff kitzes is a fake, the comments were removed

here for your delectation are what they couldn’t cope with so i assume i am buddha means “ i am a pot smoker ”

why crazies explain for ever what they don't understand, i don’t know ! ?

Theo M.

just more purling in the stream . . . no ? ; ) ?

you’re another pot smoker using zen for window dressing ?

if jeff kitzes reads this (ed. the fake deleted it) , please post your views on pot smoking and drug use, get real for once in your life ! ?

Theo M.

You seem extra awakened this evening (ed. it was midday here in the southern hemisphere) but are you trying to suggest all cannabis use is non-medicinal, or that no one should recreationally imbibe any substance ? it seems too strict to limit all your ingestion to nutritional needs only . . . almost like you’re hoping for ever lasting life . . . what would you do with all that extra time ? is pleasing the tastebuds that much different than pleasing the senses ? What about a pleasant smell ? Is this different than a massage ? Worse ? Better ? ; ) Either way, I hope you’re enjoying the new year, and I hope you don’t take any of this too seriously, but know I meant it sincerely . . . and don’t forget your grain of salt, but it seems you’re still judging ?

my entire experience of people who smoke pot is their brains are fucked like yours weepy bullshit and as i said use zen for life wall paper ! ?

Theo M.

ever wonder if your experience is sheltered or based upon false assumptions ? your zen seems contrived . . . like you’re attempting to emulate a master from a koan you once heard or read more than being authentic . . . but that’s just my sheltered experience of you, so hopefully you grabbed a spare grain of salt : ) And what’s so bad in being a stupid pothead ? is intellectual or spiritual one-upmanship a better path . . . a better drug perhaps ? nah, clearly you’re as sober as a bird. feathers ruffled and all ; ) perhaps intellectual pride is the curtain at the end of the yellow brick road ? nah, you’re too matter of fact for that. anti-posturing is still posturing if you look close enough ?

typical potspiel, wank on !

you can’t write or think clearly and you think this is ok !?

Theo M.

lol . . . your awareness is dulled by your biases ?

ed. i have included theo m.’s comments as very illustrative of the tangled narcissism of drug users and why they think it so important to waste my time with their bullshit i don’t know !

any public domain religious subreddit eg christianity has an intrinsic divergence between its high public domain drop in rate and constant ongoing battles by regulars to conscript the public domain use of the word into the private domain

r|zen is a conflict between individuals trying to conscript what is a public domain use of the word “ zen ” into their private domains

its like the hundred years war or however long the word remains fashionable !

brittany is putting all her emotional energy into the therapy streams and its killing her

lacks boundaries

i should know !

everyone declaims, its this, that or the next thing ̱ ̱ ̱ . !

everyone declaims, its this, that or the next thing

everyone declaims its this that or the next thing

my life has burnt away in futility

why should i explain anything

why should i explain everything

what is the point of my explaining everything

what is the point of my explaining anything

what is the point of your explaining everything

what is the point of your explaining anything

we can know a bit about something, but to bring it to practical fruition is quite a different problem

everyone is the entire universe, what we call ‘ reality ’ is just an image that enables the persistence of you as an image

jason takes the camera at ice’s party and gives brittany air time

jason writes

people like to put their fingers in their ears when they hear something they don’t like !

i told kbubblez last night that pot is a drug and it causes brain damage, she said to me “ you’re stupid if you believe that ! ”

typical potspiel , (ed. see replies) wank on !

you can’t write or think clearly and you think this is ok !

typical potspiel, wank on ! you can’t write or think clearly and you think this ok !

my entire experience of people who smoke pot is their brains are fucked like yours, they post weepy bullshit and as i said use zen for life wallpaper !

millenial idiot throws a poorly baited hook

ice poseidon in amsterdam

its interesting how some people respond better or make things much clearer in a very different culture

i think my writing is like live streaming in a way !

i wonder if being a vegetarian is as damaging as pot ?

i wonder if vegetarian is as damaging as pot ?

sometimes i wonder if vegetarian is as damaging as pot ?

jason was at ice poseidons new year’s party in new york ( $3000 to book a room at the hilton with a good view of the times square ball ) and had an interesting time

( ed. twenty-three thousand viewers at peak and he got some high donations )

he writes : i showed james the same picture and he said she (ed. brittany) looks high maintenance

my comment

james being gay will judge women far better than you or i

more by jason

all of the streamers there smoked pot daily

kbubblez paid off the security guard $60 to not be kicked out of the hotel, she said when questioned if $60 was a lot “ that’s only like an eigh . . (th of weed) ” she didn’t say the ending but you could tell

ice smoked pot at night to sleep, and more than that i think

brittany smokes the ‘ indica ’ strain to sleep

ed. she is 33% ‘ black ’ , age twenty, streamer for at least four years, diagnosed bipolar and on medication, “ happy pills ” , she does “ therapy ” streams where she takes callers and they talk about their problems

she started to get tired as we were walking to the second place and showed frustration, her boyfriend kept telling how he “ told that security guard to bug off ! ” and she said “ yeah you’ve told that story like sixteen times ”

also it was only me, brittany, and her boyfriend in the room for about twenty-five minutes and he was wanting to order pot with a delivery service and he didn’t have any money and wanted me to pay

he said he’d pay me back and. i asked brittany if he would and she said “ i'm sure he would . . ” , but during and before this she was complaining to him how he has her pay and doesn’t pay her back

then he was getting upset because he wanted to know what she was thinking and if she wanted to go home, she was complaining that he wanted to order pot right then and there and he asked if she was upset with him or something like that and she said “ i just don’t like your lifestyle choices ”

my comment

yeah, write this up for your blog and link stuff, they are public personalites, exposure goes with the territory

jason replies

i should write something up about the whole experience

yesterday i was driving along the beach and i thought about brittany for a moment and then looked to my right to the beach and saw the still clouds in the sky

my reply

when you write it up you will have the odd experience of the one sane thing being written about the event and hardly anyone ever reading it

you were driving along the beach with no real life contact with brittany and the clouds were still in the sky ! : o)

jason replies

it was interesting for someone to say i was unique to the room, especially with other unique personalities there

“ When guys are this age and filled with testosterone, they’re emotionally reactive and need to understand consequences instead of the instant gratification of rage

I understand since I was once a quick to anger guy . . . now, I think about spending life in prison for reactions I could have controlled with an extra three seconds worth of calming down ”

why crazies explain for ever what they don‘t understand, i don‘t know !

when you see a quote posted, remember the person quoting is not the person who said the quote orginally, indeed they are usually scam artists relying on association to imply they really said what they quoted !

weirdly, the person quoting in the fact of their behavior are often polar opposites to what they quote !

this guy is difficult , he can’t distinguish fantasy from reality , i was thinking the net is so selective for this sort of person !

i got a profound feeling of dissonance and exhaustion watching this, maybe because of my experience with reddit zen, a different context, but the same mentality

i would think it must affect brittany !

jason writes he was surprised with how much of a non existent barrier there is (ed. ice poseidon’s new year party 2018) , i felt like when i got to the room and saw ice and his girlfriend it was like i already knew them in real life

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i had to call people out often for being disrespectful to me or to others

i was surprised with myself that although the women there were gorgeous, i didn’t treat them like sex objects but normally

the really good looking ones had boyfriends though

like the videos are real and i hang out with him actually and seeing him in person was not very much different at all

women are there to propagate the female species, men are just an end to this, even sons for they have daughters !

after a while the search reveals

it all comes back to nothing

after a while the search for everything reveals

it all comes back to nothing

everything comes back to nothing

it all comes back to nothing

a half truth is a complete lie

when you look at these photos , you believe in evolution !

chapter three of ‘ the tragic sense of life: ernst haeckel and the struggle over evolutionary thought ’ by robert j. richards

is a lyric account of ernst haeckel and hermann allmers ‘ holiday ’ in italy in 1859, sorta an idyll rarely encountered !

ernst’s art

its not advice, its just discussion, not even discussion

i can be quite completely wrong !

in the end, hindsight is perfect because what was indeterminate has happened

my rephrase of benajmin franklin’s famous quote

half the truth is always a big lie

the world is so stupid it makes me weep

let’s not talk about our own stupidity

the world is so stupid it makes me weep

let’s not talk about my own stupidity

the only explanation for charles bukowski can be exceptionally high neurotrophic growth factors

otherwise he would have been just some other a depressed wreck

why should a few more wrong turns bother me

its very hard to deal with people whose opinions are quite different

people don’t change so its better to avoid those areas

amyloid beta levels in sleep-deprived people were 25 to 30 per cent higher than in those who had slept the night through

interestingly

sodium oxybate increases slow-wave sleep — the deep, dreamless phase of sleep that people need to wake up feeling refreshed

transmission from the sixth patriarch trumps public domain use of the word ‘ zen ’

transmission by the sixth patriarch trumps public domain use of the word ‘ zen ’

transmission from the sixth patriarch trumps public domain use

transmission by the sixth patriarch trumps public domain use

pot smoking can throw you into a charles bukowski sort of life without the talent

a lack of reality orientation is common or even de rigueur amongst pot smokers

a lack of reality orientation is common amongst pot smokers

bentinho massaro has taken more than a few leaves out of da free john’s book !

i think bentinho is quite a bit crazier though !

da free john was an intelligent and untalented sleeze on the make !

bentinho is outright schizophrenic amongst other things !

horses for courses !

temicco banned me from r|zens

i’m not criticising the banning since i do it on a much larger scale in my subtreddit , its simply that he is creating his own malformed version of zen and censoring to keep it that way

i ban to stop my time being wasted by wrong-minded idiots

anyway, what happened, my replies in response to this OP

i reply : what a load of unadulterated crap !

cliché pie for the stupids, who believes in this shit ?

thecowisflying replies : Ok

my first reply which temicco (a moderator of r|zens) then PM’ed me about

the monk was speechless eh ?

no words of his own so he has to quote crap !

: o(

how fake can you get ?

temicco’s reply : Hey, please stop randomly calling things/people “ crap ” and “ stupid ” and so forth on r|zens

This is your one warning — I want to have good discussions, not a subreddit full of lazy criticism

my reply : its not random at all, buddha never existed historically, so the first line is a lie and what follows is crap and a particularly bad translation even allowing for an allegorical use of “ buddha ”

real “ monks ” can reply for themselves why are you protecting a fake ?

because you are a fake yourself ?

why not let him reply, easy enough to discuss “ allegorical ” versus “ historically real ”

let him be a man and not a coward !

my second reply to “ OK ”

you seem to be a bunny ! try not being a bunny and address what i say which is based on the allegorical use of “ buddha ” versus the fact buddha is made up, not historically real !

“ the monk had no reply ” is going to be your theme song ?

the sutras are a very long historical wiki, they have no authenticity outside what they say which is usually garbled nonsense

buddhism is a load of unadulterated crap !

cliché pie for the stupids, who believes in this shit ?

when it comes to religion

you can’t argue people out of fake bullshit

when it comes to religion, you can’t argue people out of fake bullshit

you can’t argue people out of fake bullshit

why are things so unstable ?

even

brain

unstable

why are things so unstable ?

even my brain is unstable

why are things so unstable ?

why are things so unstable

“ philosophical errors ”

philosophy is an error

judaism doesn’t have a coherent view of the afterlife, i think basically they tend towards the greek view, something happens, but not much

christianity particularly , but also islam get around the problem of the world not matching up to any particular moral code by having the reward of heaven and punishment of hell, handy for justifying martyrdom

so judaism is particularly conflicted by adverse events where clearly god is set out to punish his people, the exile to babylon which you can possibly explain and the holocaust which defies explanation except the notion of a chosen people is a load of nonsense

judaism limps on but the holocaust has destroyed any semblance of rationality !

i watched an episode of “ the wire ” , well written, tense but complete bullshit

a raid by omar’s gang with no masks, what were they thinking !

the behavior is just a middle class scriptwriters projection

as if the police get at all involved in that shit !

the children of billionaires barry and honey sherman who were clearly murdered had to get pressure put on the police to treat it as homicide rather than murder-suicide !

unreal !

“ urine samples that were less acidic, closer to the neutral pH of pure water, showed higher activity of the protein siderocalin and were better at restricting bacterial growth than the more acidic samples ”

a low branched-chain amino acid diet promotes leanness and improved control of blood sugar

i dug about in my sack and found a quote for shan tien, or was it buddha or even the 7th patriarch ?

hubricity blinds us

how can we escape ?

hubricity blinds us

how can we escape ?

hubricity blinds us, how can we escape ?

Tien Shan

a mountain range in central Asia, in Kirghizia and China

Shan Tien is of course a discordian pretend zen master !

translations don’t equal what is said versus translations can’t equal what is said !

translations don’t equal what is said versus translations can’t equal what is said

ice poseidon has too much energy , burns too fast !

he wants to be drinking lithium water !

hongzhi’s poetry is the ugly sickness of total psychosis !

“ people who know its truth nod their heads with comprehension ”

ed. hongzhi

in “ whatever psychward ” silent illumination is in yeah !

you pack something up and then you have to unpack it

but if you don’t go through that process you don’t learn anything

‘ the nazi officer’s wife ’

film/video

toni packer had a jewish mother and it took the intervention of a friend of her father’s with the gestapo to keep her mother safe

i don’t think anyone in her american life really understood the insecurity she went through and how it marked her !

her mother and herself and siblings and cousin/brother were on a death list found after the war, again something the significance of which was not realised by those about her in later years, had the germans won no doubt “ the cleansing ” would have been intensified and the list acted on !

its such an important thing in life, to temper our impulses with rationality !

its such an important thing in life, to temper our impulses with rationality

the quiet satisfaction of reading r|zen but not participating and seeing all the rabble fighting and wondering how i was ever involved in all that !

i think prince harry would have married ellie goulding earlier, except for her not handling anxiety and stress well, he shows some savvy in life about preferring comfort to too rough an emotional ride !

he must have picked up something over the years !

my thoughts on the first anniversary of carrie fisher’s death

the truth about carrie fisher is way weirder than any star wars movie/plot, she was a friedrich nietzsche quality genius, with some appropritate mentoring when young she could have done better, but the way to be with that sort of intelligence is to be screwed up by the world and i think harrison ford screwed her over royally with his (and her) pot use

since infinity is all then it must include what it is not and the only way it can do that is if what it is not denies what it is

infinity itself does not exclude non-infinity

giant otters killing a rather obtuse caiman

basically there’s some puzzle you have to work out and you have to traverse existance and non-existance

basically there’s some puzzle you have to work out and you have to traverse non-existance and existance

you can’t retrospectively comment on a life

the finger pointing at the moon is not the moon

the finger pointing at sewage saying it is the moon is sewage

franz kafka’s sisters were gassed

joseph mangele died while swimming

tell me there’s a benign god ?

sepehr has at last opened a blog . .

Why are crows symbols of the Gothic ?

When man’s society

feels less sublime

than the crow’s flock

and freedom ?

Why was I born as a mid-class man ?

Stuck with idiots to hustle n’ bustle . . .

on the edge of poverty,

and not as a corvid

who merely needs his niche ?

When the crow shits on man’s metal hunk,

then it’s beautiful.

from this lake, famous for its distant clouds

suspended

you have returned

singleton

moon

suspended mountains

in the clouds

the above is my reworking of a poem by jioran (730-799) from ‘ clouds thick, whereabouts unknown : poems by zen monks of china ’ by charles egan

ewk the jackhammer

jackhammers sand

ewk the jack hammer

jack hammers sand

why are druggies so dreary and boring

there’s something intrinsic in its false solipsism that makes it so, not simply the brain damage !

what is love ?

what is love that it survives a wedding ?

its interesting to compare charles bukowski and edith coliver , both born in germany, she two years later, but both emigrating with their families to the USA though at different ages, one a successful productive person, the other a lifelong wreck, yet he is incomparably the greater !

“ how long can one live on one slice of bread and a little bit of water ?

people started to die ”

lithuanian jewish woman nechama shneorson tells her story

paula lebovics, the best holocaust survivor interview , she and her life say more than the others !

man, sometimes you lift a rock to see what’s there and what you see surprises you !

sandra hoyn photographs of the kandapara brothel

the red sea crossing is in fact a mangling of an egyptian “ victory ” in syria i.e. , a stalemate where the hittites were forced to swim across a river to escape

dr. josef mengele ate non kosher animals and lived a happy life in south america !

you claim to be observant (ed. jewish) of what ?

the insanity of life from the point of view of a religious psychward ?

“ All words are nonsense ”

especially the ones you write !

ed. yes dillon123 again who says he is three months pot free at this point !

look you can’t take another persons opinion as valid can you but rabbit meaninglessly on

“ zen ” is in the public domain, it means what is in the public domain, your version is idiosyncratic to the point of insanity !

you can’t tell how life turns out, but you can say somethings !

if you don’t get your diet , supplements and exercise to the point you won’t be susceptible to pot addiction then you will always be undercut no matter what you do careerwise !

careers require learned skills and pot fucks the memory, what can i say ?

franz kafka’s sisters were gassed, i can’t see any metaphysical logic in that !

kafka’s sisters were gassed, i can’t see any metaphysical logic in that !

“ exposure of adult male cockroaches to electromagnetic radiation emitted by mobile phones has resulted in sharp changes in the enzyme systems of fat body and haematological profile ”

“ microbiome microbes of the lachnospiraceae and ruminococcaceae families generate metabolites that can travel through the blood stream and reach the brain

here there is a triggering of depressive-like symptoms

the main metabolite for this effect appears to be cresol ”

nonsense attracts nonsense don’t you find ?

its all mayberry land i am afraid, are they supposed to thank god for leaving their lineage intact during the holocaust ?

and actually these prayers, tell god rather than thank him !

isn’t it all some rather crazy fiction ?

the problem with “ people on earth ” and indeed all science fiction is we are the only technologically advanced planet in the universe !

we age and decay, what gives ?

hill flowers bloom and wreath like magical brocade, the winding stream reflects blue

one - you

two - two

three

i want to pee

four - open the door

five

thrown on a bee hive

six pick up sticks, pick up picks

seven - back out of heaven

eight pile up silver on a plate

nine -

asinine

ten

hen in a pen

how many holocaust deniers fit on the head of a pin ?

a philo quote

for as i imagine what a wall is to a city , that caution is to an individual

edward hartry, an émigré polish jew and his interesting life

so the stages of removal from r|zen are not posting OP’s, not commenting then not reading

it really has the etiology of an addiction !

clara schumann could have been one of the really great composers , but never got the time to develop since she was a wife, mother and the principle breadwinner

her husband felt the conflict, a really sane man, its hard to see how he ended up in a asylum !

his words

clara has composed a series of small pieces, which show a musical and tender ingenuity such as she has never attained before

but to have children, and a husband who is always living in the realm of imagination, does not go together with composing

she cannot work at it regularly, and I am often disturbed to think how many profound ideas are lost because she cannot work them out

jason writes

i saw some guys playing small sided soccer in the next field so i drove over, when i got there i was in my boots and jeans and i asked if they needed another player, who i asked definitely thought i was crazy and didn’t realize i had a change of shoes

he said “ next sunday be here at ten, don’t forget ! ” so i said okay i won’t

they were an interesting group of people who were battling it out, small sides means i won’t head the ball but these guys seemed pretty rough which translates into me being especially picked on !

jason writes

i was flying my drone at an open field at a park, in new york you’re not supposed to fly drones in parks but i think as long as you’re respectful you won’t get bothered

well, i’m flying the drone and focused when i hear someone say something behind me and i look around to see a man and his son, the surprise making me crash land the drone with it ending up upside down

well they’re just standing five feet away from me and my whole face is covered with a neckie and a winter hat, so i’m just staring at them for several seconds without them saying anything and i say “ how do you do ? ”

he says they just find it interesting so i said “ okay just be careful because i’m new ”

and he said how it was impressing and how he goes to best buy and they’re expensive and they have all these features, he says how planes need to land like drones

so i keep flying some more until the battery runs out and i begin to walk back to my car, i see a vision of a big drone flying through the sky being controlled by a small black silhouetted person, then i “ get out ” of the vision and a rhyming homily comes to me, but i didn’t write it down so i forgot and it’s another piece of writing gone forever . .

i do not fear to love

very moving , the singing and music match the poem well

i love the russian voice and english subtitles !

xyz who has been getting worse this northern hemisphere winter asks

how can i get the BCD working ?

how do i know if its working ?

r e p l y

you need to understand the SCD as well as the BCD

stool quality is a good indication and feeling of well being

lots of writing on the web

i was thinking you need to sleep warm and really the magnetic field should not be above .1 mG

you are just not putting the work in the right places

marijuana is an immune suppressant and can cause herpes outbreaks

“ SIR, — A variety of stimuli are known to trigger a recurrence of latent herpes simplex infection.

A rise in temperature, physical trauma, exposure to ultraviolet light, steroids, and anxiety with a presumed liberation of adrenaline are well-known provoking factors

Cannabis smoking has not, to my knowledge, previously been noted as a provoking agent causing recurrent herpes simplex ”

xyz’s reply was antagonistic with the following re-quote, the mark of a true addict

cannabis smoking has not , to my knowledge, previously been noted as a provoking agent causing recurrent herpes simplex

r e p l y

“ cannabis smoking has not ”

so why don’t you read the link and why don’t you understand the phrase “ previously been noted ” , meaning it is now noted

why are you asking question about electric blankets and heaters that we have gone over before

don’t sleep with the electric blanket on

heaters are a question of distance, don’t you have a magnetic field meter ?

you are going in returning circles !

it was extremely disprespectful to your mother to blot out her dying with your use of cannabis, you don’t get that do you ?

last night being warm but the night sky being clouded over with little or no moonlight , i was sort of half dozing , sitting on the woodpile and was taken in the visionary of the most amazing garden, full of beautiful flowers and walks, like nothing i have ever seen in intensity and beauty . .

where did this come from ?

it was literally overflowing !

if you write entertaining you can make money, or at least you used to, but i’m not sure, there’s always a life sadness . .

the world does not weight words

the world does not weigh words

what is religion ?